RNFs at 4 a.m.

2 February, 2012
Rat Fink

My new year’s resolution to try to care a bit less about what people think is being mightily tested. Here is what I observe (in lieu of sleep) this morning:

  1. I am being refined by fire. It’s good for me. By “refined by fire,” I mean watching my character (and that of a colleague) be assassinated in an open forum. And by “it’s good for me,” I mean I did not respond to it.  Those who know me best know that it is not at all like me to take that kind of treatment silently. Win.
  2. There are those who think I have never suffered rejection or disappointment, so I couldn’t possibly identify with what they are going through. Oh my, the stories I could tell…
  3. People who have never spoken more than a few words to me in my life appear to have intimate knowledge of why I make certain decisions. If they were actually correct in their assumptions, it would be beyond cool, ja? It’d be like, I dunno, magic.
  4. It is always easier to assume than to ask. Maybe it’s because we are afraid we won’t like what we hear. (I’ve been guilty of this, too.)
  5. This will all pass, and the sun will come up, and things will again be good. I have 35 years of experience with this stuff telling me that’s the case.
  6. I hate auditions.

What I really want is for someone to get up and make the coffee. Nah, nevermind — I’ll do it. Happy Thursday! I can smell the end of the week…

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Country Mouse
Country Mouse
2 February, 2012 7:06 am

No need to ask how auditions went…..I can see there were some disappointments. I see/know why you hate auditions! This too shall pass and hopefully cooler heads will eventually prevail. My “words of wisdom” for those dealing with disappointment….such is life, we don’t always get what we think we deserve, and everything is a “teachable” moment that we can take something away from (good or bad). The most important thing is how we react to our disappointments. My words to those being “refined by fire”……keep your chin up…..and a big hug from me to you! My words of wisdom to… Read more »

2 February, 2012 9:38 am

On one hand, I can sympathize with those people who feel they got gipped for a part. I know I felt that quite a few times back when I still acted. At the same time, I never blamed the directors. I just got angry because I knew I could have done a little better at the audition and maybe I would have gotten the part I wanted. And hey, if I’d gotten the part, maybe we wouldn’t have had to deal with Lazar Wolf deciding to quit four weeks before open so he could warm the benches on JV Baseball.… Read more »

2 February, 2012 12:08 pm

Wow, am I behind!

So sorry to hear of your troubles, girlie. Not sure what it’s all about but hope it’s over soon. Sometimes all you can do is reef the main and batten the hatches until it blows over.

You can keep silent and not react, but don’t let it eat you from the inside out. Make a loaf of bread and knead all your frustration into it. :)



Rat Fink Reply:

Great idea, friend. In fact, I’m going to make something super sweet this weekend — that oughta fix me right up.


2 February, 2012 2:22 pm

Oh dear! I wish I were there to give you a big hug and listen to what’s up. :) If ya wanna chat my ear off you know where I am sweetness! :)


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Mail sent!


3 February, 2012 11:41 am

Yuck, what a mess. So sorry. But ya know, once rehearsals start everyone seems to figure out why who is casted as who. The show will go on and it was be wonderful!



Rat Fink Reply:

And you know this firsthand! :-) Thanks, Meggly.