Focused NFs on a Wednesday

11 April, 2012
Rat Fink

:cry: Nothing random about today’s neuron firings.

I found out yesterday morning that one of my former students — she posted here at RtB once or twice as “A Nonny Mouse” (here and here) — passed away. She was very close to a young colleague, who is struggling right now, as are many close friends this girl had throughout high school.

She was a poet, a musician, a thinker, a writer, a cynic. So incredibly wise — and sad — for her 20 short years on earth.

I have decided to redouble my efforts to recognize and act on the smallest sign from any teenager who might be considering suicide. I’m sad that it took something like this to shake me awake to this issue, but I have smelled the coffee. All of us who spend our days with 12-18-year-olds need to be more vigilant.

May the choir of Angels greet you,
and like Lazarus, who once was a poor man,
may you have eternal rest. —
In Paradisum, The Gregorian Missal

Rest now, Jessica.

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11 April, 2012 11:31 am

Like you, Fink, my world has been shaken over this. Since receiving your text yesterday, I have been unable to focus on anything else. I think I’ve experienced every possible emotion between anger and sorrow. No, Jessica and I were not best friends but we were definitely more than acquaintances. I sensed she needed a special friend years ago. Why did I hesitate? Why didn’t I pursue a deeper friendship? Perhaps I should have been more than just kind to her. It makes me wonder if things could be different. I know you feel the same. It’s tragic that we… Read more »

12 April, 2012 1:30 am

I read her posts here. She loved you, L :) Hugs, she is now in a good place.


Rat Fink Reply:

Thanks, Suz. She was a dear, sweet soul who just felt very lost, and I’m glad she is finally at peace. So sad! I loved her too. (AND YOU!)


Tom Hanks
Tom Hanks
12 April, 2012 2:29 pm

I did not know who she was until this happened. Reading her writings and poetry since then has been sad. She seemed to be exactly what you said…wise beyond her years and overall a beautiful, feeling, and intelligent person.

“May the choir of Angels greet you”

I am glad to believe in that^


Rat Fink Reply:

Me too, TH. Me too.

She definitely was a beautiful person, inside and out. You would have liked her a lot.